Rocky was the first movie that I drove to the theater and watched alone. I was a Sylvester Stallone fan from that day forward. Today when I heard that Sylvester Stallone’s 36 year old son had died, my heart wrenched and felt great empathy for the whole family. It also immediately threw me back to the PTSD pain where I don’t like to go.
But everything hasn’t been bad or sad for me over the past couple years. Let me tell you a few good things about my life:
- Alyssa is alive.
- I no longer have PTSD flashbacks.
- In this terrible economy, I still have a job.
- I designed my new blog and moved it over from Blogger. I am SO much happier with it now and tremendously enjoy writing my posts.
- My writing and photography “eye” has improved. I totally love all my foodie tutorial posts.
- I know who my friends are and I know who doesn’t give two shakes of a lamb’s tail about me.
- I lost weight.
- I’m still alive.
That’s enough of a list for now. So life hasn’t been a bowl full of cherries, but I’ve done the best I could, learned, improved and keep on trying to do better each day. I think that is the important lesson in life especially when there is one painful experience after the next.
Life isn’t always going to be easy and it definitely won’t be fair. If we can remember to keep on trying no matter how difficult the situation, we will eventually reach the end of the heartache. With my Monday appointment inching closer, I’m scared, excited and hopeful that I will get all of myself back.
You actually don’t even know the WHOLE me because I’ve had PTSD for most of the time that I’ve been blogging. The actually dedication to writing on my blog each day helped saved me from going completely crazy especially because at one point, I really thought I was going to die.
So now I believe that life is a bowl full of cherries that are partly eaten and with pits. There will be great, good, happy, sad, scary, awful, painful and devastating times in our lives. We should take one cherry at a time, spit out the pit and eat the juicy fruit.
What do you think about that proposal?