This weekend I was very much alone and it gave me plenty of time to think about my relationships, goals, dreams, PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder) and life.
Saturday I went on a long drive and took lots of photos. Even though it was late afternoon when I got home, I took a nap. It was a nap that lasted almost all night. Obviously, I was very tired.
When I awoke on Sunday, I expected to have tons of energy because of all the rest that I had the night before. It took a while to wake up, but I still had enough energy to spend a large part of the day cooking to prepare for the upcoming week. I took several short naps with Bella during the day while things were boiling or baking which revived me enough to keep going.
I had plenty of time for self-examination. Thinking so much actually made me tired because my life has been very full.
With the responsibilities of going to work for a huge portion of every day, stopping to contemplate life is usually not a priority for most people. Actually, society dictates that we don’t stop at all. It pushes us to fill every moment with new experiences and new things. That much activity is really not good for us. We need empty time that is void of responsibilities and activity so that we can sit quietly and meditate.
Examining our life will give us a better understanding of who we are and why we tend to make certain choices. We will gain a deeper understanding of our subconscious actions which will help us avoid repeating behaviors that cause us unhappiness. All of this “thinking” will bring about a calming feeling and inner peace.
When we feel that we can actually make a difference in our own life and that we have control, we are not only happier with ourselves, but also make better choices. Those good choices in turn makes us happier and it is a continuous cycle of great behaviors and positive thinking.
It is important that we step back and see the whole picture. Take the bird in the photographs. The first close up photo leads you to believe that it is a very cloudy and dreary day. By the time you get to the last photo which is pulled back revealing more of the sky, it is evident that although there are some gray clouds, there is also quite a bit of blue sky and puffy white clouds. The sky was actually very bright.
Well, that is how meditation and self-examination can help in your life. Right this minute there may be a bunch of things that are bothering you. Maybe you feel that there is no way out of a bad situation and you have no idea how you got to this point anyway. That is the perfect time to stop life for a few minutes to obtain peace, understanding and direction. Contemplate what got you to this point, what choices you have and where you are headed or would like to be in the future. Take the time to step back and look at the big picture.
So being very alone isn’t always a bad or lonely thing. Sometimes being alone is actually necessary to refocus, redirect our life and to rid ourselves of the chaos so that we can gain inner peace.
When was the last time you took the time to examine your life? How often do you make an effort to re-evaluate where you have been, where you are now and where you are heading?