As a Christian woman, I am supposed to practice faith in all things which is simply a belief that God will do the best for me, my family, friends, country, world…you get the point. I’m ashamed to say, having faith is very hard for me when it pertains to my life and very easy when it is someone else’s life.
Maybe that is just human
Or maybe that is being weak.
I think it is just my own weakness.
My faith has been drowned by fear and doubt.
I find it hard to just believe that God wants to bless me.
My husband, Tom, has been out of work for quite some time. He has remained steadfast and positive that in God’s time he would find work again. I have felt that God was punishing me for my sins. That I apparently deserved unhappiness, stress and fear. That the financial hardships were what I merited. I haven’t spoken this aloud except for once, but it has been in my heart.
God blesses us even when we are weak,
In complete humility and deep in my heart, I always knew that God loved me even with all my weaknesses,
And with my lack of faith.
I tried doing many things to adjust my attitude. A few of the most different included blogging more motivations to uplift my spirit and increase my faith. I turned off the television and didn’t listen to the radio to and from work so that I could carry on a conversation with God
Pleading for a job for my husband
And to obtain the whisperings of peace in my heart.
My mother and husband’s faith was strong. Their prayers of faith were pleasing to God, I’m sure. I was weak and prayed with a heavy heart, fear and doubt. Because He loves me in spite of my weaknesses and as a blessing to the faith of my mother and husband, God granted His blessing.
My husband has a job.
An excellent job that he starts on Monday.
My heart is full with
In the power of God
And embarrassed humility that I didn’t have more faith and believe in Him for the blessing we needed.
I know that many of you have been praying this same prayer with us, so I want to publicly thank you for your friendship,
And most of all examples of practicing faith.
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