The last seven months of my life has been like a movie set on fast forward…all in a good way! To top it off, today is my birthday AGAIN!
The fact that life is an extremely short and limited experience has never been more of a reality than it is today.
Have I really lived on this planet for 53 years?
The reflection in the mirror tells me it is true, but it sure doesn’t feel like that many years have passed unless I really think about everything I’ve learned.
“You will either step forward into growth or you will step back into safety.”
~ Abraham Maslow ~
When I was born, I didn’t know how to do anything and was completely dependent on others just to keep me alive. With each passing day, my sponge-like brain constantly soaked in information.
Some things I learned and never used again.
Some things I mastered.
Some things I have to keep on trying to master.
“Unless you try to do something beyond what you already mastered, you will never grow.”
~ Ralph Waldo Emerson ~
One thing is for sure…I won’t ever have enough time to learn or do everything I want to experience. Finally, I’m okay with that fact. I can honestly say that I’m enjoying being me for the first time in my life.
I enjoyed being a daughter, sister, niece, student, aunt, wife, employee, friend, neighbor, and mother, but I never enjoyed being me.
That’s easy to answer – I’ve never appreciated myself through the growth process. I have been patient and forgiving of everyone except myself. That inhibited my growth and fed my fear.
The fear of embarrassment.
The fear of being shunned.
The fear of not being loved.
The fear of failure.
One of the biggest lessons I’ve learned thus far in life is that being patient with yourself is absolutely mandatory to the growth process. Everyone is a work in progress. No one is perfect and no one will ever be perfect before they die. It’s just a fact.
Today I’m better than I’ve ever been because of all the knowledge I’ve accumulated. Some I learned from other people and some I learned the hard way.
Some lessons COULD be taught, but many had to be experienced directly by me so that some of the rough edges of my soul would be polished off like a smooth river rock.
Moving into the senior years doesn’t mean that you have to lose your zest and spark for life. There’s still so much to enjoy! The body may move slower and need a little more maintenance, but inside the spirit is still young, excited and eager to live.
Live, not just be alive.
“You can’t help getting older, but you don’t have to get old.”
~ George Burns ~
I can now appreciate what I’ve already experienced and accomplished. I like me. No, I love me. Even with all my flaws and a past filled with flub ups, I still love me.
I won’t ever invent something like the computer, be the President of a country, or take a trip to the moon, but I’ve accomplished some pretty amazing things in my life. I’m not living in horrible shame because of my mistakes, missed opportunities or inabilities. So not only do I love myself, I’m proud of myself!
Having reached this belief about myself and life, I hope to be able to always cling to it and make it a solid foundation to lift me up during the hard times that will still keep happening. Getting older doesn’t mean you run out of struggles. Hardships bring about growth and that’s what life is all about…experiencing and growing.
I may be slowly starting to fade on the outside, but I’m still vibrant inside!
“My past does not define me. It has enabled me to learn, grow, attain my goals and live my dreams.”
On this beautiful 53rd birthday, the only 53rd birthday I will ever have the joy of experiencing, I wish you all a wonderful day.
A day of growth.
A day of realization.
A day of accomplishment.
A day of appreciation.
A day of happiness and sincere joy.
Live every day like it is your birthday!