In case you have no idea what is happening weather-wise in my part of the world (Richmond, Virginia), we have been having thunder, lightening, rain, tornado watches and more rain.
While I was home working on the computer and talking on the phone, the power went out several times. Outside it was raining bucketfuls with raindrops as big as my mama. Well, the drops were not literally as big as my mama, but they were big drops that sounded REALLY loud as they hit the pavement.
Pow! Splat! Pow! Swish! Pow!
You get the idea.
There was so much rain at once that it created big puddles everywhere.
Alyssa was in the shower. Yes, she was showering during a storm. Joan was talking to me on the phone learning to use Gmail when my electricity shut off. Yes, I was talking on the phone during the storm. Obviously Alyssa and I do not follow all the rules of safety during storms.
Anyway, at that point I told Joan about the rain, power outage and tornado watch. She asked, “Aren’t you scared?”
“No,” I said without hesitation because I really wasn’t scared at all. I love storms and have lived through several tornadoes. I told Joan that even though I wasn’t watching the news, I would know if a tornado was close because I would be able to hear it because it sounds like a giant freight train. The sky would also turn a weird green shade.
I turned, looked out the window and saw the “patio lights” shining brightly against the clean green of the grass. The sky was still gray and there was no whirring tornado sounds.
As the rain got heavier, the sky grew more gray and my little patio lights seemed to shine even brighter.
“The rain to the wind said, ‘You push and I’ll pelt.’ They so smote the garden bed. That the flowers actually knelt, And lay lodged — though not dead. I know how the flowers felt.” ~ Robert Frost ~
I’m sure you can relate with that poem by Robert Frost.
I know exactly how it feels to have been smote so hard that I “actually knelt, And lay lodged — though not dead.” It is during those times that I have felt like a shadow or reflection of myself. My “light” often appears and feels dim and almost snuffed out.
When the rain drenches my dreams, I am paralyzed at first from the shock. How I detest this part of my personality! I’m truly not THAT naive, but whenever some big change happens in my life, I’m shocked.
I may not be scared of rain, thunderstorms and tornado watches, but big changes like divorce, moving, death and unemployment knock me down. I become filled with fear of the unknown in my life and future because I have no control of the change.
“It’s all nonsense. It’s only nonsense. I’m not afraid of the rain. I am not afraid of the rain. Oh, oh, God, I wish I wasn’t.” ~ Ernest Hemingway ~
But nothing keeps me down forever and in true redhead spirit as time passes and the shock wears off, reality sinks in and I begin to work on Plan B. One raindrop at a time, I accept the change in my reality, examine the possibilities and then work like crazy to incorporate the change into my life in a positive manner. I can’t control the “opportunities” (I use that word SO LOOSELY) that often occur in my life, but I can control my reaction to the change.
Rain is inevitable.
When it is raining…
You can be miserably wet and complain.
You can put on your raincoat and splash around in the puddles.
You can stay inside and watch the rain as it drips down the outside of the windows.
You can go outside and hide under an umbrella.
The most freeing of actions is you can go outside without a raincoat or umbrella and dance happily in the rain.
The choice is entirely up to you.
As the day wore on and the rain continued, eventually the sun set and darkness fell around my patio lights. I’ve been enjoying the brightness of the little lights all evening and observed their reflection in the puddles on the patio.
The dark always comes before the dawn and when it is the darkest, you have to search for the light of hope.
Right now I’m stuck in the gray, lonely, rainy day and hanging on to the smidgen of hope I still have left.
The one guarantee you have when it pours rain is that eventually the sun will shine again.
It may not shine today or tomorrow or even the next day, but EVENTUALLY the storm will pass, the sky will turn blue and the sun will shine brightly again.
“We must accept finite disappointment, but we must never lose infinite hope.” ~ Martin Luther King, Jr. ~