That is the message that has been echoed throughout my writing for the past four years. Actually, four years ago today I wrote my first blog post. My life back then was miserable, but I didn’t become really vocal about it until a year later when I got PTSD.
The hope of a better life, a happier life and a more fulfilling life is threaded throughout my posts. My life has not been easy and it has felt like there would never be an end to my unhappiness. Even now sometimes, I am overwhelmed by the things I haven’t accomplished in my life and regret weighs heavy on my heart.
My blog has been my best friend. Being able to write my hopes, dreams, feelings and thoughts saved me during the insane part of my PTSD flashbacks. Without this blog, I don’t think I would have made it through the terror that tormented my mind. I honestly can’t believe I’ve written so many posts. Why haven’t I run out of things to say yet?
I had no idea when I got pneumonia during Christmas in 2008, that it was the best thing that could have happened to me. Because I was confined to the couch for three weeks with pneumonia, I read my first blog and started learning what blogging was all about. At the time I thought that I was being cursed with pneumonia. Looking back now, maybe I should thank God for the blessing of getting so sick.
Perspective makes all the difference. It is always that hind sight thing.
I now have some hind sight. Because of all the unhappiness during the last four years, I have learned what is really important in life – people, love and loving the people.
While standing on the edge of life and death, it changed me forever. It not only changed my attitude and personality, but it changed my brain. After the excitement of last week (I haven’t shared that with you yet), I can look at my life with a renewal of hope.
Hope and determination to accomplish my old dreams.
Hope and determination to live my life fully.
Hope and determination to help other people.
Hope and determination to love and be loved.
Hope and determination to create new dreams.
So Happy Birthday Blog! Thank you, Blog, for listening to me and recording every word I wrote when real people didn’t want to listen or couldn’t understand. Thank you, Blog, for helping me to find my sanity again. Thank you, Blog, for helping me share my thoughts with so many wonderful people around the world who have left their fingerprints on my life forever. Thank you, Blog, for sticking with me when my life was the worst it has ever been. I can’t thank you enough, Blog, for helping me to make the right decisions on the road that stretched ominously ahead. Thank you, Blog, for empowering me to find my voice again.